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Sometimes…you are in the right place at the right time in order to do something for someone and you have no idea if it is the right thing to do.
Cryptic, this is what is occupying my head today. I have just alternately between trying to get some work done and napping, it is amazing how the older you get the longer it takes to recover from one night spent staying up till 3 or 4 in the morning. Its almost like it is more difficult to recover from that when there were no drugs or alcohol involved. God, when I think back to my younger days and I could literally just spring back from any excess and go hang off the side of the building like nothing had occurred.
And I don’t think it is a function of aging in the body. I think it has to do more with when I stay up that late, all self and naturally motivated, I am paying attention. When I was younger I was not paying attention to anything and the fine art of paying attention can be exhausting.
I sat around with a group of my friends who are all pushing 70 the other day and we sort of went through the litany and list of things we have been told about aging that are just not proving to be true (and then we side tracked into the scary fact that nutrasweet makes a great ant killer but that is another story).
Your body changes yes, your mind changes yes, but there was a round table rejection of all the crap about sexuality diminishing (it gets stronger and deeper), risk taking calming down (it really gets stronger) and energy levels diminishing (longer to recover but the stamina when you are going is phenomenal).
And we decided that how you age really depends on what you believe about it in your younger years. If you fear it, your fears come true.
And that is true about anything and everything. Fear is a subtle decider. Like fearing that you will always be alone or even that you will “hook up” with the wrong kind of person can make that happen oddly enough because on some levels, we seek to provide proof for our strongest beliefs. If we have allowed fear to become our strongest belief, then we will seek to create a life that confirms it.
Aren’t we all such subtle and complicated beings.
I am toying with the idea of recording a quick, no-nonesense video of “Striking a Match.” Not sure yet, my naps have severely changed my time frames for the day and I am now stuck on the desire for bon-bons and thinking I may sacrifice my laundry money for two minutes of pleasure (that will then make me sick but oh well).
Blame it on the gentle rain.
copyright 2000-2009 Cassandra Tribe.
All rights reserved. For permission to use any of this material please contact info@loveandwords.com
Cassandra Tribe is a member of Newsy.com
Cryptic, this is what is occupying my head today. I have just alternately between trying to get some work done and napping, it is amazing how the older you get the longer it takes to recover from one night spent staying up till 3 or 4 in the morning. Its almost like it is more difficult to recover from that when there were no drugs or alcohol involved. God, when I think back to my younger days and I could literally just spring back from any excess and go hang off the side of the building like nothing had occurred.
And I don’t think it is a function of aging in the body. I think it has to do more with when I stay up that late, all self and naturally motivated, I am paying attention. When I was younger I was not paying attention to anything and the fine art of paying attention can be exhausting.
I sat around with a group of my friends who are all pushing 70 the other day and we sort of went through the litany and list of things we have been told about aging that are just not proving to be true (and then we side tracked into the scary fact that nutrasweet makes a great ant killer but that is another story).
Your body changes yes, your mind changes yes, but there was a round table rejection of all the crap about sexuality diminishing (it gets stronger and deeper), risk taking calming down (it really gets stronger) and energy levels diminishing (longer to recover but the stamina when you are going is phenomenal).
And we decided that how you age really depends on what you believe about it in your younger years. If you fear it, your fears come true.
And that is true about anything and everything. Fear is a subtle decider. Like fearing that you will always be alone or even that you will “hook up” with the wrong kind of person can make that happen oddly enough because on some levels, we seek to provide proof for our strongest beliefs. If we have allowed fear to become our strongest belief, then we will seek to create a life that confirms it.
Aren’t we all such subtle and complicated beings.
I am toying with the idea of recording a quick, no-nonesense video of “Striking a Match.” Not sure yet, my naps have severely changed my time frames for the day and I am now stuck on the desire for bon-bons and thinking I may sacrifice my laundry money for two minutes of pleasure (that will then make me sick but oh well).
Blame it on the gentle rain.
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Video Release: October 2009copyright 2000-2009 Cassandra Tribe.
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