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Last night got strange, for me, and I fell asleep and dreamed. Just a relatively normal dream but it brought me back into a dream situation I have visited before only is had changed significantly.
So, I jumped online and was googling around and found a forum dealing with the symbolism of this dream and was absolutely shocked. Not so much about what people were thinking it meant, but that so many people had posted that they found it unbelievable that other people had the same dream as them.
I mean, to a T, which plays into the whole concept of synchronicity and the collective unconscious.
So…here is what I had been dreaming and here is the dream I had last night.
In my dreams, for years now, whatever is happening occasionally I go into a large public bathroom. It has several stalls and a line of sinks. White tile on the floor and so on. Never because I have to pee or anything, but for whatever reason in the dream I open the door and step inside.
At first when I dreamt of this bathroom it was dark and cavernous, sewage had over flowed onto the floor and their was puddles of it everywhere. The stalls all sat in shadow with some of their doors closed, but you couldn’t see anyone’s feet. I never made it past the entrance way because the feeling I got from it was just bad.
Over the years there have been some changes.
Slowly the bathroom got lighter. Then when I came in there would be people in it, but the people were as nasty and bad feeling as the place was still dirty.
Then, a few years later, it was still nasty, the people were sketchy but the water was running and there was less sewage on the floor and less toilets blocked up and I would go in and quickly wash my hands or face and leave and get back to my dream.
Then last night, in the middle of what I call a “little obvious dream” (the kind where you are like – oh yeah right, I was thinking of that today) I opened a door and there was the bathroom.
Well lit, clean (er) - not sparkling but your basic truck stop clean. All the stalls were in use by people who were just…normal.
I actually went to use one of the toilets but…ahhhh….had difficulty figuring out how to do it and then I woke up.
Now, I have come across several interpretations of this dream. One is that you have to go to the bathroom when you are still sleeping (not…wake up and I am fine). Two that is has to do with money (frankly, I don’t believe that either but it is a popular school of thought to tie dreams to money or love because that sells) and three, that it represents some internal emotional process going on that is dealing with something that I cannot directly remember, or have not made the connection to it being so very deeply disturbing to me. The dirtier the bathroom, the less it can be used, the more frightening it is - the more power this hidden thing has over you. As the bathroom becomes cleaner and more friendly, the more its power is lessening as you begin to deal with it (even if you are unaware that you are doing so).
The presence of people in the bathroom and the fact that for most people they are dreaming of a public bathroom has to do with the fact that whatever this thing is, we are conscious in a way that it is effecting the quality of our life and is not just some private thing that has no effect on how we live. The more people and interactions in the public bathroom that are “normal” the more this thing is ceasing to interfere with your life.
It is striking though, to sit and read someone else’s almost verbatim description of your dream.
Its funny because I think I have told you that I dream in “another country” a very set and defined land, complete with a population and it is consistant over time. However, there are doors in the dream that open up (like to the bathroom) where I become aware that I am no longer in my dreamworld, but in a dream designed to work something through. So, I wake up and do the research.
And now…
Coffee and much much work.
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So, I jumped online and was googling around and found a forum dealing with the symbolism of this dream and was absolutely shocked. Not so much about what people were thinking it meant, but that so many people had posted that they found it unbelievable that other people had the same dream as them.
I mean, to a T, which plays into the whole concept of synchronicity and the collective unconscious.
So…here is what I had been dreaming and here is the dream I had last night.
In my dreams, for years now, whatever is happening occasionally I go into a large public bathroom. It has several stalls and a line of sinks. White tile on the floor and so on. Never because I have to pee or anything, but for whatever reason in the dream I open the door and step inside.
At first when I dreamt of this bathroom it was dark and cavernous, sewage had over flowed onto the floor and their was puddles of it everywhere. The stalls all sat in shadow with some of their doors closed, but you couldn’t see anyone’s feet. I never made it past the entrance way because the feeling I got from it was just bad.
Over the years there have been some changes.
Slowly the bathroom got lighter. Then when I came in there would be people in it, but the people were as nasty and bad feeling as the place was still dirty.
Then, a few years later, it was still nasty, the people were sketchy but the water was running and there was less sewage on the floor and less toilets blocked up and I would go in and quickly wash my hands or face and leave and get back to my dream.
Then last night, in the middle of what I call a “little obvious dream” (the kind where you are like – oh yeah right, I was thinking of that today) I opened a door and there was the bathroom.
Well lit, clean (er) - not sparkling but your basic truck stop clean. All the stalls were in use by people who were just…normal.
I actually went to use one of the toilets but…ahhhh….had difficulty figuring out how to do it and then I woke up.
Now, I have come across several interpretations of this dream. One is that you have to go to the bathroom when you are still sleeping (not…wake up and I am fine). Two that is has to do with money (frankly, I don’t believe that either but it is a popular school of thought to tie dreams to money or love because that sells) and three, that it represents some internal emotional process going on that is dealing with something that I cannot directly remember, or have not made the connection to it being so very deeply disturbing to me. The dirtier the bathroom, the less it can be used, the more frightening it is - the more power this hidden thing has over you. As the bathroom becomes cleaner and more friendly, the more its power is lessening as you begin to deal with it (even if you are unaware that you are doing so).
The presence of people in the bathroom and the fact that for most people they are dreaming of a public bathroom has to do with the fact that whatever this thing is, we are conscious in a way that it is effecting the quality of our life and is not just some private thing that has no effect on how we live. The more people and interactions in the public bathroom that are “normal” the more this thing is ceasing to interfere with your life.
It is striking though, to sit and read someone else’s almost verbatim description of your dream.
Its funny because I think I have told you that I dream in “another country” a very set and defined land, complete with a population and it is consistant over time. However, there are doors in the dream that open up (like to the bathroom) where I become aware that I am no longer in my dreamworld, but in a dream designed to work something through. So, I wake up and do the research.
And now…
Coffee and much much work.
>
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